Tuesday, January 12, 2016

C25K 2016

I just finished C25K week 2, day 1. I did 2.13 miles on my treadmill. I'm using the Ease into 5K app, which I bought a few years ago when it was still called Couch to 5K, and I've been wearing my Her Universe Captain Phasma tank to motivate myself.

I've started C25K a few times before. Usually make it to week 3, then something happens that changes my schedule or the weather gets too icy to run outside or whatever... and I miss a few days and never get back into it. It's easy to make excuses when it's cold and dark and I'm busy with work.

This time I'm going to finish. I might have to repeat a difficult week, or squeeze in a run even though I'm busy with grading, or suck it up when the temperature drops below zero. I definitely need to buy new shoes. But I will finish this time.

And if everything goes as planned, this time next year I will be training for the 2017 Dark Side Half-Marathon at Walt Disney World. 13.1 miles in 3 hours or less is my goal. I can't think of a better way to celebrate my birthday or the countdown to episode VIII!

Friday, January 1, 2016

New Year 2016

I hope everyone had a fun and safe New Year's Eve last night! We stayed in, ate some finger foods and watched Ex Machina on Amazon Prime streaming. Tomorrow we have plans to play a marathon session of D&D with friends. All-in-all a very low-key New Year for us.

I don't put much stock into the New Year and resolutions - autumn has always felt more like a time for new beginnings to me, and the cold and dark of winter kill any motivation I have. But there are some things I definitely need to accomplish, and I need to start now. I just feel very lost and unfulfilled, like I'm floating along without much direction and have no support system to help deal with it.

I haven't made New Year's resolutions in years, but two major things I will accomplish before the next turn around the sun are...

Complete C25K
I have started C25K a few times over the years, usually making it to week 3 or 4 - but then something happens with my schedule, or depression hits, or the weather changes and ice makes it too slippery to run outside, or I have a looming deadline, and suddenly making the time is too difficult. Whenever I get overwhelmed the first thing to go is my diet and exercise.

This time I am pushing through to finish all 8 weeks. I want to run the Disney Star Wars half-marathon someday (next year?), I want to be stronger and fitter, I want to know that in 10 or 20 years I'm not going to have weight-related health problems that could have been avoided - and if I want these things, then I better quit thinking about it and start making them a reality.

Finish my dissertation
I am sick of being a graduate student, feeling like I'm waiting for "real life" to start, fearing what is going to happen after grad school (what am I even going to do with this degree???), and fielding questions from relatives who have no genuine interest in my work beyond "When are you going to finish?"

I am going to finish my dissertation for a spring 2017 defense date so I can move away and move on with my life. Find a job that pays a livable wage. Just get on with life.

Do or do not, there is no try. And I am choosing to do.